Courage. I feel like I've been praying for courage since day one. Yet, it is still something I feel around for in the dark, hoping will appear. Once I think I've found it, in actuality, it is just the opposite. Brennan Manning talks about people who are not actually prepared for God to answer their prayers. They pray for humility, yet they don't prepare themselves to be humbled. He says if you pray for humility, get ready to be humiliated because you learn it; it isn't magically instilled in you. I guess the same goes for courage. If you pray for courage, get ready to be scared. Am I praying for courage without preparing myself to be scared-to stare disappointment and fear in the face? Am I praying for courage yet backing into my shell when a moment comes?
"Courageous risks are life-giving, they help you grow, make you brave, and better than you think you are." Joan Curcio