Wednesday, March 4, 2009

be here now

Sometimes you know you need to get away, and last week I really needed that breath of ocean air. To be away from the city, away from school, from work, away from my noisy neighbor…it was such a gift.

And to be with such good company made it that much better. The weekend was full of good conversation, good food, good music, hiking sand dunes, walking on beaches, playing with the cutest puppy, naps, mini-road trips and just all around goodness.

I feel I have a community growing in
Portland, and I don’t think I could have said that before last weekend. I mean, to an extent, yes I have community. Maybe now I am just ready to invest in a community here. I’m still torn about whether to set my heart on Seattle or Portland or another city in terms of where a job may open up, but I’ve decided to just “be here now” as Ray LaMontagne sings.

I can be present now, even when everything in me is just jumping towards thoughts of the future and worries etc.
Life is about the here and now, the not knowing.

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity."
-Gilda Radner

I’m okay with the not knowing and with the here and now. That's what it's all about anyway.

Especially when it looks like this…

I think I will forever and always live near the water. I need oceans, rivers, sounds, and lakes.
It will be like an investment in mental health.

1 comment:

thatoneguy said...

delicious ambiguity, the story of my life...